Why do we love?

CS™ at 9:42 PM

I suddenly want to be on an aeroplane going on holiday. Even though I hate airplane journeys. hmm. Escape maybe?

CS™ at 8:59 AM

Worse. That's what my studies are becoming. I can't do math anymore... but rather

Than giving up. I shall study... One day to study for geometric proofs tmr. Oh yeah

Being so forgetful, I hope I don't forget my quad functions also. Otherwise I'd be like

Strangers in a foreign land during the maths paper.

hmm did you just miss something? miss...

should sleep soon. night
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softly say.
why don't you kiss her

CS™ at 8:44 AM

Tomorrow = study
therefore,
now = sleep

goodnight people =)
Be happy!

CS™ at 7:44 AM

Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?

Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all the shattered dreams of your life
and at the foot of Jesus lay them down

He never said there would only be sunshine,
he never said there'd be no rain,
he only promised a heart full of singing,
about the things that once brought pain

give them all give them all
give them all to Jesus,
shattered dreams wounded hearts and broken toys,
give them all give them all
give them all to Jesus,
and he will turn your sorrow into joy.

Bio pt to do. toodles. =)
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CS™ at 7:06 AM

=) Daughtry! 'all that I'm after is a life full of laughter'

Today physics test and ting xie. both went quite well. Reaping the fruits of study. haha.

And then today's last period was supposed to be assembly, but assemblies are still banned so we had a missed P.E. period in place of it :D but it was at 12.30pm, couldn't go in the sun so we were in the gym.

And I lost 2 kg in a week yay. Still a long way to go! Better not injure myself again, then everything will go to waste. again...
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there's no life after you.

CS™ at 4:59 AM

All the tests and assignments are flooding. So I don't know why I still have time to blog. haha.

Can't get myself to start on any PTs. Bio, Chem, History. Bio and Chem due this week. Then tmr, got ting xie and Physics quiz. Chem practical this week I think, either that or Chem OBA. bah. Next week maths CCT and Bio CCT.

And still got some Chinese Oral thing.

I haven't completed my physics homework for tomorrow! and It's first period. Mr Tan is FT so I have to be in early before he comes to copy :P
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bye people .
Somebody needs you.

CS™ at 7:43 AM

I shall be happier =)

Well, you can present me happiness on a plate but if I refuse to take it then there's no point.
The happiest person isn't the one who has the best of life but the one who makes the best out of it. Well, I can't guarantee I won't emo, but I'll do it less.

Like what Pastor Derecc(sp?) said yesterday. There's two sides to everything. If I don't experience sadness I wouldn't know what happiness is. =)

Bought 2 westlife albums and Daughtry's new album. :D happy. hahahah.

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I shan't cry over happy memories. Because they're happy for a reason.
thankyou for whatever you gave me. (:

CS™ at 7:39 AM

Estelle. Since you complained about the love videos. This one isn't on love.

"Stand"

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

[Chorus:]
Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause its all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off

Then you Stand, Then you stand

Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon
With only one way down

Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

[Repeat Chorus]

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place
Oh

[Repeat Chorus]

meaningful right? =) I like the part where it goes "Then you stand." makes everything else look insignificant after you get up and go.

One part of DPM Teo Chee Hean's speech on friday.
He said Life isn't an escalator. It doesn't mean that once you've found an entrance then you're set for life. It's a constant struggle.
It's not a staircase either. Because a staircase means that someone has been there before and built it already.
But rather, we must go off the beaten track, live our own lives. And build stairways for the less fortunate.(If you're reading this you are not considered less fortunate)

Yup.
Keep going on people. =)
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(: -it's for you

CS™ at 7:40 AM

sigh.

You were everything.

CS™ at 8:43 AM

Today we missed 3 out of 4 periods listening to DPM Teo Chee Hean speak =)

well. It was quite insightful. Probably people who fell asleep wouldn't know...

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dejected
I'm barely holding on to faith
But deliverance is all it takes.
God where's my miracle?
Is it too much to ask?

CS™ at 12:44 AM

Love will keep you up all night :'(

Score 12.5/15 for Maths TA on Quad Functions. Okay lah. but not enough to make up for failure first term resutls.

I just realised Bio is free marks =) I scored 17/30 for CCT but I still have a 3.6 amazing. The cct weightage was 10% when the practicals were 10% and 15%. scored 15/20 and 16/20 for practicals which was quite bad already. But I still have a 3.6 =)
everybody else has a 4.0 though.

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Love is all around
but eluding me.

CS™ at 7:43 AM

I know I've posted this already.

But this is dedicated to the person who's emoing currently.

You're never gonna be alone kay? =) cheerup.

CS™ at 7:40 AM

What am I to do with the past, when it's all that I have, and I can't get you back. :'( x10^3204823057304785432

went ccab to play soccer/frisbee. First time in a month. So lazy and fat. blah. =( and then didn't bring shorts. So i was playing in jeans and I ripped my jeans. Good thing managed to borrow yisin's shorts.

So I was wearing liverpool shirt with man u shorts. haha.

sigh.

Can you see me? Here I am. Standing here like I'm always there.
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I don't know anything anymore

Once, you made the world feel so right
Once, you were my morning noon and night
Why’d we slip away, why did it all change, how will I ever be the same
once.

CS™ at 6:31 AM

wonder which hurts more
seeing you or missing you.

CS™ at 7:18 AM

Just thinking about you that feeling overwhelms me, almost as if I'm drowning.

CS™ at 9:03 PM

Yesterday.

why she had to go, I don't know
She wouldn't say.

Thought of this earlier onnnn. My boredness sigh.
Male -> M ; Female -> F

M: Here, I drew a picture of us
(Hands over the picture)
F: WHY IS IT JUST YOU IN THE PICTURE?
M: No matter how I drew you, it just wasn't perfect enough.

toodles
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a thing of the past I regret.

CS™ at 9:11 AM

Were the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

chorus

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

chorus x2

Good luck to myself for ERP and Maths TA tmr. (I feel so pitiable for having to do this for myself. kidding haha)

bye world.
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nothing I could say.

CS™ at 7:25 AM

There was no such thing as a dream come true.
But that was all a day before you.

I really wish I could sing the chorus.

Now you're here and everything's changing
Suddenly life means so much
I can't wait to wake up tomorrow
And find out this promise is true
I will never have to go back to
The day before you

Finally finished Jhumpa Lahiri's The Namesake. First book I've completed in a LONG LONG LONG time. It was quite amazing, all the comparisons. How the children try so hard to be American. How Ashima fears losing her heritage. And how they all change over time.
And of course what the title suggests, the importance of a name. From Gogol to Nikhil back to Gogol back to Nikhil. And how they signify different lives altogether although its the same person.

okay... eyes are going to die. so time to sleep

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Trying but knowing very well that I can't patch up that gap meant for you.
I have so many things inside waiting to come out.
Of who I am.

CS™ at 9:09 AM

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪 the most painful expression is having none at all
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你 the most lonely thing is that I still miss you
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己 the most saddening thing is me not able to face myself

the song is disabled for embedding so click here if you want it.

CS™ at 8:24 AM

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm back there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.

Oh, how I find every subtle thing screams your name.
It reminds me of places of times we shared.
Couldn't live locked in these memories.
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again.

I need some shelter, I need some safety.
Photographs, they haunt me lately.
Chasing shadows as the evening takes me.
I'm still searching, but the picture's fading.

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I'm a lost cause.

CS™ at 7:08 AM

few results from the last week of last term.

Phy prac: 12/15 which is 80%
Phy CCT: 20/30 quite good counting that I expected to fail
Ying Yong Wen test: 10.5/20 after 2 marks deducted for not writing question number. really good cause 1/4 of the cohort failed.
History in-class graded assignment: 15/20 quite okay I guess.

CS™ at 7:43 AM

Press ctrl +a. or highlight the bottom part only if you(refers to everybody) care.

Sick and tired of this life where my feelings are treated like weed; trampled on and pulled out of the ground (by nearly everyone). Where I go to church pretending to be a 'real christian'. Discouraged each time I try to change because nobody would give me time to go through the process. Each night hoping to fall asleep to forget everything and disappointed that I'll have to wake up to a world so cruel. Nothing ever changes.
I really don't want to go on. Pretending like I can cope with life because I can't. It's too heavy a burden for me. Since when is falling down another step to success? Try falling down a flight of stairs and tell me if you'll end up on the upper end.
What is success anyway?
Looks like I'll never fufil those 'prophecies' of greatness. Who am I kidding. greatness?
Why did God make me with feelings. So much of it that I get hurt so easily, that I back down so easily. Is this a joke made in heaven?
Everything I've ever lived on is collapsing at my feet.
This life sucks.

CS™ at 3:51 PM

I know it's probably just me. Oh well. let me dream?

Tell me you’ve had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
That it’s my face you’ve been seeing
In your dreams at night

Tell me that you wake up crying
And you’re not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life, in your life baby

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you’ve waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it’s not just me

I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the pouring rain (pouring rain)
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing (crazy thing), I said

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you’ve waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it’s not just me

Hold me now and tell me that you do believe
In a soul, a soul mate
And tell me, and tell me, tell me

Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you’ve waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it’s not just me

okay shall go and do a little bit of maths. afterall i have no life and nothing better to do.
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thew it all away

CS™ at 7:14 AM